A Runner Looks at 40: A Look Back

5 years ago at Ragnar Chicago ’15

So 2020 hasn’t gone like I planned. There’s been some good and a whole lot of “meh.” Looking back at a post I wrote in December, just before my birthday, I had ALL SORTS OF GOALS. With what I had hoped and planned for, it was set up to be a great year.

Check out the article here: A Runner Looks at 40.

There were a lot of good intentions there, but reality didn’t quite work out as I’d hoped. I planned on setting goals for 5k’s and 10k’s, fundraising goals for the team in our efforts to benefit NeighborLink Fort Wayne, as well as, starting some unstated long term goals for Runners Doing Good and none of it happened.

It’s really tough to write that. None of it happened. My responsibilities changed at work and I loved it had some extra responsibilities so there was less time available and right when I was going to begin my training…quarantine. I spent 10 weeks at home working in a spare bedroom and while I ran several times to keep my sanity, it wasn’t enough. I sunk into work to take my mind off of not seeing friends and family and again, it wasn’t enough.

I had a few days in there where I was just an absolute mess and eventually had a day where I was on the verge of a breakdown the whole day. Fortunately, I have a wife who I’m blessed to be with and she arranged a socially distanced beer and pizza summit in the driveway with my best friend. It helped get my mind right, but my motivation for running endeavors was minimal. There was no Ragnar, no Sunburst, no Fort 4 Fitness, or any other race and as much as I can say I hoped I’d get the gumption to do a virtual race, it got me thinking….I run in my neighborhood all of the time. I’m not going to pay to do it just to get a medal. That might not be a popular opinion for sure but that’s where I was.

So yes, 2020 has been a disappointment but there’s still time. I’ve run 3 of the last 4 days and last night, I felt like myself out there. I was a slower and heavier version of myself last night but I wasn’t an “I can’t believe it hurts this bad to run” version of myself. It’s still not pretty but I felt like some rust was knocked off last night.


So here’s my wish list for 2020 and into 2021 to finish this year off in a more acceptable manner and to kick a$$ in 2021:

  • For 2020:
    • Find 100 miles between now and the end of 2020 – trail, road, pathway…it doesn’t matter
    • Get back to that 210-215 range. I’ve not gotten Covid-19 but I’ve found THE Covid-19, it feels. I just can’t anymore. Whatever it takes.
  • For 2021:
    • Personal
      • Get to 190-195
      • Run 500 miles in 2021.
      • Indy Mini in May
      • Bolder Boulder in May
      • Sunburst in June
      • Ragnar Trail Michigan in June
      • Ragnar Black Loop somewhere???
      • Fort 4 Fitness in September (Triple Crown???)
    • Team
      • Refine operations
        • establish official email
        • create revenue stream
        • grow relationships
          • donors
          • sponsors
      • Establish Time Line for 2021
        • Announcements
          • Sponsorship
          • Fundraising
        • Events
          • Relays
          • Members

So again while 2020 was pretty disappointing and “eh”, “whatever”, and “blah”, the team and I are excitedly looking at 2021 thinking it could be the best ever!

Stay Tuned and follow along if you’re not already. Announcements and updates on team activity will be coming in the weeks ahead with the first announcement to be made next Monday, September 21st!




2 thoughts on “A Runner Looks at 40: A Look Back

  1. I guess it’s a good time to start planning for 2021.
    I ran my last IPR (in person race) or IRL (in real life) race on Super Bowl Sunday.
    The race encouraged teams and my running club had about 30 people, our largest turn out so far.
    I had a good run, hung out with some good friends and drank too many good beers!
    It was a great day that I truly appreciated then, and even more so now.
    I actually have a half marathon paid for for 2021. It was postponed from this year!


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